I've had sex before, but never truly enjoyed it... I always thought it should be with someone I love... But this man ignores my resistance and pins me down... I shouldn't let him touch me... Yet I'm powerless to stop him... He thrusts his disgusting, erect cock into my mouth... Ah... I'm being raped right now... Being turned into a filthy adult woman... Fear and shame tighten my chest... His overwhelming determination contrasts with my helplessness, creating a strange sadness... Yet, amidst it all, I can feel his intense emotions reaching my heart... This moment, as traumatic as it is, becomes my first true adult experience, signaling the awakening of new, confusing feelings within me...