I find my ordinary daily life boring. I have a strong sex drive—so strong that I could be called promiscuous. But mere sex doesn't satisfy me. I want to be dominated. I want to be defiled. I want to experience suffering. I want to feel pain. I crave humiliation. In fact, the harsher the treatment, the more aroused I become. These fantasies take complete control of my mind. I want to destroy my normal everyday life. As a female masochist, I want to push myself to the edge and challenge my limits. That is my deepest desire.