The last time I had sex with my husband was 14 years ago. When we first married, we passionately sought each other every night, hoping for a child. But after failing to conceive, we grew exhausted and emotionally distant. Either I or my husband must have had some issue. Since falling into a sexless marriage, I've had no choice but to satisfy my desires through masturbation. At first, I used my fingers, then gradually moved on to vibrators, dildos, and electric massagers. I love being roughly used, and while pleasuring myself, I always fantasize about being violently raped, blindfolded, tied up, and taken against my will.