After my husband suddenly disappeared, I drowned myself in alcohol, consumed by deep sorrow. Though I hated him, the love I still felt deep inside never faded, and this conflicting emotion tightened my chest. With our married life abruptly severed, I felt empty both mentally and physically, unable to control myself. Drawn by my son's body scent, I found myself reconnecting with the emotions I once shared with my husband. My mature body reacted to his scent, evoking feelings so complex I couldn't even understand them myself, squeezing my heart with unbearable tension.