She had been living alone with her chronically ill mother, discovering a passion for fashion only after high school, when she started working at a local city hall. However, exhausted by office relationships and growing reluctant to interact with people, she switched to working on a production line at a food processing plant. After her mother passed away, she began craving a life filled with color and meaning. At 25, she moved to Tokyo and began working as a retail apparel clerk, but once again failed to fit in. Tired of her lonely urban life and uncertain about returning home, she one day met a man selling self-made clothing from a roadside stall. They began dating and eventually married. For her, who longed for emotional support during her isolated days, perhaps anyone could have filled that role. But her husband was a virgin with little experience, and she gradually realized she was craving more than he could offer. She herself lacked the experience to take the lead. When drunk, her desires became overwhelming, yet she remained too passive to act boldly. Today, she feels a new determination to change all that.