At age 14, I still remember the first time I kissed him on a train station platform—the excitement and racing heartbeat are unforgettable. A month after that first kiss, we had sex for the first time in a love hotel. It didn't hurt and there was no bleeding, which made him suspicious. My first experience unfolded gradually and naturally. Another unusual sexual experience happened on the embankment of the Arakawa River—there was a stray dog around, making it a bit awkward. At 17, I also had an orgasm with a man ten years older than me. Each of these experiences has shaped who I am today.