Currently, I'm attending vocational school to obtain a qualification while also working part-time, so I'm extremely busy every day. My first time was in the spring of my 18th year, right after graduating high school, with my boyfriend at the time at a love hotel. I was so nervous that I couldn't talk properly and felt somewhat anxious. I've only been with two people, and I'm not the type to actively make the first move. But that doesn't mean I'm not interested in sex—I do want to grow closer with someone.