Four years into marriage, my husband is frequently away on business trips, leaving me barely seeing him. During these lonely times, I find myself craving intimacy. That's when I often indulge in masturbation, fantasizing about a handsome actor. He has a refined, elegant face, yet surprisingly bold fashion sense—often wearing revealing clothes that show off his chest. His behavior clearly shows he's full of desire. The thrill lies in longing for him, pleasuring myself while imagining he'll come and wildly, animalistically take me apart.