My first experience at his place was a shy and nervous memory. Lying on the futon, he softly said, "Take your clothes off for me," and gradually I exposed my body to him. Once naked, I fidgeted uncontrollably, trembling from nervousness while feeling his gaze, my heart pounding wildly. Suddenly, I was pushed down and we had sex right there in that position—the image still vividly burned into my mind. The sensation of that moment, and the feeling that our relationship had deepened, is something I still replay over and over in my heart.