My first time having sex with an older guy was in a park, and I was nervously wondering if anyone might see us. Because it was my first experience, I'll never forget the mixed feelings of tension and anxiety. Back in middle school, I once got turned on while watching TV and masturbated alone. I usually do it calmly in my room, but I've also masturbated once in an empty classroom at school when no one was around. When he came inside me, I was shocked by the uncomfortable, queasy feeling afterward. I still remember that experience clearly.