Every year as the year ends, I feel time passing faster. A whole year slips by in the blink of an eye. Even painful periods feel long, yet life itself begins to feel like a fleeting moment. Once again, Shinemon has sent a new video. This time it's about a woman doing paid dating. She's working hard to repay her student loans from college. She's not doing it for shopping or travel, but for a serious, honest reason. But then, in a way she never expected, she was XXX'd, and watching it was shocking. She moaned with such a cute voice, but was she unconscious from the very beginning? Almost all the women Shinemon sends are like that. This woman just happens to have a particularly adorable voice, yet she clearly reacts with moans and screams. Does she have no thoughts at all, feeling everything purely on instinct? If even a split second of rational thought flickers through, it becomes impossible to ignore. Reaching climax without thinking—truly enviable. Thinking this way, I can't help but feel these targeted women brought it on themselves. Besides, since she came to meet her sugar daddy, she must have had some readiness to accept anything. No matter her reasons, she's earning money through paid dating. Shinemon isn't doing XXX, but she orgasms repeatedly, so maybe he's actually a blessing to these women. Plus, if XXX returns, she even gets paid. No, that's not right. XXX is XXX, it's XX. It might be one-sided work. Has connecting with Shinemon distorted my perception? Or is it just that, because of year-end events, I couldn't set a date with Y-kun and haven't been able to meet, leaving me sexually frustrated? I thought about switching to a different shop, but decided against it. The woman this time had fresh, elastic, translucent skin—absolutely beautiful. I'm starting to understand why older men are drawn to young women. It's the reverse situation, and while I envy youth and stamina, more than anything, she was just so cute. For a moment, I even recalled Y-kun's skin. I almost feel grateful to Shinemon. The man XXX'ing her gets to enjoy such a young woman repeatedly without paying a yen—how envious. I wish I could spend the year-end and New Year's events with Y-kun nonstop, without spending a single dollar. It's turning into one of those days where I just feel jealous. Maybe the cold is amplifying my loneliness. No, I can't fall into despair. Alright, forget about year-end or the new year—let's enjoy every single day to the fullest. Let's savor this brief life. In a way, I find myself respecting Shinemon's way of enjoying life—such is my mood these days.