I once believed my husband loved only me. Confident in my beauty, maintained by a strong sense of aesthetics, I was seen as the perfect woman—intelligent and beautiful. I married a handsome, successful entrepreneur who founded a startup, and we were the envy of everyone around us. But in our fifth year of marriage, an incident sparked suspicion of infidelity, shaking the foundation of our trust. When we finally talked, he claimed it was all a misunderstanding—but then admitted he had been visiting sex workers. Hearing that shattered the image I had carefully built for myself as a devoted wife, and I lost all confidence. From that point on, I kept reliving our stale, routine sex life. Was my body no longer attractive? I kept asking myself, but could only conclude it was his laziness. Yet if my husband was willing to pay for sex elsewhere, then I decided I’d let others pay to see me—my sensual expressions, my overflowing eroticism. I chose to perform. Because for me, sex has always been about pleasure—seeing my partner’s face flush with satisfaction, becoming addicted to me, falling helplessly under my spell. That’s how I fulfill my desires.