Since entering university, the world started to look different. Seeing girls walking around every day, dressed up and having fun, made me want to live a more fulfilling life too. Until then, I'd been completely absorbed in exam prep, so I had almost no experience hanging out with friends or knowledge about romance. I had no male friends or boyfriends, and I believed stable future meant happiness. But after entering university, I hit a major wall—because I'd focused only on studying, I lacked basic life skills, common sense, and knowledge about things like politics, making classes really tough. Around that time, I got a boyfriend and started enjoying sex, but I was quickly dumped when he got bored. After that, I went back to living alone, isolating myself, and occasionally hooking up with casual sex partners. Now, I just feel like eating a macaron.