I've been filmed by my boyfriend using his phone camera before, but I was so embarrassed that I immediately asked him to delete it. Back then, he probably thought, "Why are you asking me to delete it, yet now you're appearing in an adult video?" But since there wasn't much exposure, I figured I wouldn't get recognized. When it comes to boyfriends, though, it's a little scary to fully expose yourself. Since I really like him, I don't want to repel him or be disliked. I've always wanted to passionately enjoy sex and let myself go completely, but I could never bring myself to ask him. That's why, with the mindset that I'd probably never see him again, I started enjoying myself with other people. Today, I even squirted from the male actor's hand job and ended up saying out loud that it felt amazing. It's a bit embarrassing, but it's also a nice memory. We tried various positions, and each one had its own unique sensation, making me realize how differently pleasurable they can feel—it was fascinating. Definitely the skill of a pro. Riding him and getting thrust into hard from below, or being taken doggystyle with my ass lifted high, felt incredibly good. I actually found myself wanting to do it again.