I always had a secret struggle. It was about my father's wife—my mother. Seeing her bright, kind, beautiful, and gentle smile made me imagine something I knew was wrong. I felt no attraction toward the women in adult magazines, yet with her, these feelings arose. Then one day, I caught my mother masturbating. In that instant, something deep inside me shifted, giving birth to emotions I'd never felt before. Witnessing her in such a vulnerable, intimate moment revealed a side of her I'd never seen, making me realize a different side of myself. That incident became the turning point, changing my heart forever.