Since getting married, I've started feeling unsatisfied with just sex from my husband, and with those feelings in mind, I decided to participate this time. I'm excited and nervous, wanting to try something different and experience new sensations. My husband promised me, "After we get married, I'll cherish you," but in reality, he's been consumed by work and we've had less and less time together. I know he's doing his best to make me happy, but I still wish we could spend more time together. I miss the way we used to cuddle and be affectionate like when we first started dating, and I've realized I stopped expressing my feelings. Surprisingly, I tend to get attention from male patients. Sometimes I feel flustered when they look at me with lustful eyes. Maybe it's because my breasts are a bit noticeable—that could be part of it. But since you don't pay much attention to me, I've been feeling a little lonely. The man I was with today seemed a bit intimidating at first glance, but in reality, he was gentle and considerate in his approach. Even though it looked rough, there was actually a special side to his play. He could sense what turned me on and made me feel incredibly good. Having my big tits played with, and experiencing toy play again after so long, felt amazing. Even when I squirted, which was embarrassing, he found it adorable. I think I'm slightly drawn to his unexpected gentleness beneath the rough exterior. Before I knew it, I was fully turned on, starting to suck his cock and even wanting to say things like "I want your dick inside me." Words I'd normally be too shy to say just slipped out naturally when I was being penetrated and overwhelmed with pleasure. I let loose and became a more open version of myself, and now I feel completely refreshed. The sense of guilt after sex might just be the perfect thrill for me as an adult woman. This experience feels like it could be a turning point, a wonderful moment that changes something inside me.