I love my husband and we still have sex regularly. But the reason I appeared in this AV was because I wanted to secretly do something bad behind his back. I love the feeling of guilt, and just imagining myself doing such a wicked thing turns me on even more. I'm not sure if I'm just highly sexed or if I'm a pervert. I masturbate about five times a week, though I hold back on weekends when my husband is home, so that makes up the frequency. I might be masturbating daily, almost like a routine. I usually watch beautiful girl massage videos, and my masturbation typically ends with orgasm, sometimes while thinking about my husband. My husband is a university professor, ten years older than me. I was drawn to his intelligence and the way he knows everything about life, and naturally, we ended up getting married. When I recall him during sex, I think, "Ah, I'm doing such a bad thing," and that thought alone excites me even further. I was stimulated with a vibrator and hand job, felt incredibly pleasure, and ended up squirting. "Ah... I shouldn't be seen like this!" I whispered, yet my body clearly craved even more. I was penetrated by a stranger, spanked on the ass, and orgasmed inside. Even before climaxing, when I thought of my husband, I silently whispered "I'm sorry" in my heart—but still managed to come intensely. I'm sorry, my love.