Looking back on my impulsive decision to enter the adult video industry, I honestly feel a bit embarrassed. I have a boyfriend I'm seriously considering marrying, so applying to do an AV would seem crazy to most people. Yet, for some reason, I ended up submitting myself. Until now, I've always followed the same path as everyone else. My friends often say, "Misa never makes bad choices," and my love life has been normal enough. So why did I suddenly choose such a different path—exposing myself in front of cameras? When the lights turn on, I strangely feel excited. Having the male actor stare at me while sucking on my fingers makes me shy and nervous, yet that sensation feels good. With my boyfriend, we never progressed much sexually, and I've never felt this kind of excitement even when we're alone. When the actor's hardened cock presses against me, I grow increasingly aroused. Being touched sends chills through me—part of me wants to run away, while another part aches for more, creating a frustrating mix of emotions. I'm experiencing pleasure unlike anything before, yet just as I'm about to climax, he deliberately teases me, leaving me completely overwhelmed and confused. A blend of frustration and desire overtakes me as I'm forcefully pinned down and dominated. I never knew intense sex could be this enjoyable and thrilling. Today's experience was a major step for me. I'm really glad I came.