Last time, I was so nervous that my mind went blank, and I barely remember anything. So this time, I wanted to relax more and truly enjoy myself. I've been busy with work lately, so I really needed a little healing. At first, I was a bit confused when told it would be a "hand massage"—while massages do feel good, it seemed a little different from anything sexual. But once he actually started touching me, my heart began racing. Being touched by a man always feels incredibly good and gets me excited. The male actor's hands were gentle at first, but soon that gentleness turned lewd—my underwear gradually shifted, and I felt embarrassed. Then came the realization that everything was being filmed, which made me even more self-conscious. Yet, surprisingly, I liked that feeling of embarrassment. The anticipation kept building—wondering what kind of touch would come next, where he'd touch me. I think I'll remember today's experience for a long time.