My wife was having frequent sex with my colleague, who is also my current boss, and I felt deep anger and confusion. Yet amidst this, a strange emotion began to grow— I developed a desire to actually see my wife being taken by that colleague. This impulse felt like something deeper than mere jealousy or rage. I still haven't figured out the true nature of this feeling. But the stronger this desire becomes, the more I sense it taking root inside me as a new kind of craving.