I've tried various premature ejaculation treatments, but none have worked, and I'm starting to feel anxious. Just applying lotion makes me squirm uncontrollably, leaving me confused about how things got this bad. Despite all my efforts, I'm frustrated that there's been no improvement. To fix this, I've attempted numerous methods like glans stimulation and penis training, but results have been disappointing. Since I have plans to play with friends who enjoy masochism, I realize I need to prepare properly before then, pushing myself hard into training. Yet, my glans remains pathetically weak, making progress nearly nonexistent, which embarrasses me deeply. I worry that if I don't take this seriously, my friends will laugh at me, leaving me feeling trapped and anxious as a desperate masochist wondering what will become of me.