Wandering through the internet, I constantly find myself immersed in outrageous fantasies, now completely dominated by annihilating masochistic desires. My young body and mind remain immature and incomplete, while my knowledge and fantasies continue to grow uncontrollably, filling my thoughts entirely. In such a state, perhaps it's only natural for these thoughts to gradually take shape in reality. Slowly, steadily, there's no choice but to draw closer and closer to that reality.