What began as mere curiosity had long since grown into an intense, burning desire to be tied up—a deep craving to experience it in real life. Yet a conflict raged within: the overwhelming urge to try it clashed with the shame that made taking action feel impossible. But continuing like this felt like living a lie, and the anxiety of not experiencing it soon only intensified. The very act of applying herself, of allowing her most embarrassing self to be filmed, sent thrilling shivers through her body, plunging her into a dizzy, almost intoxicating sensation.