I can't ask my mom friends about this, and my husband won't listen when I bring it up. But I can't just ignore it either. Keeping secrets isn't right, so I need to face this honestly and have a real conversation. That's why, as both a mother with responsibilities and a woman with natural sexual curiosity, the only way forward is to watch adult videos together with my son. Amidst this inner conflict and maternal love, the time spent with my son leads to new discoveries and personal growth.