She had a secret fetish she couldn't tell anyone about: being raw-fucked by an unknown man and getting knocked up from an irresponsible creampie. No one—her family, friends, or lover—knew about this desire, and she herself was aware it was abnormal. But just imagining it made her body shiver with excitement, which scared her. So she begged strangers on a message board: "Please, I'm begging you. Irresponsibly creampie me and knock me up."