Each time I put on the costume, as if in direct proportion to my sense of guilt, my "cuteness" accelerates. Contrary to the lovely figure reflected in the mirror, the penis between my legs grows with hot mass, and under the tightly stretched ropes, it's fully erect and throbbing. My lovely self, crying with joy at climax—bound, loved, my body's shape rewritten. My eyes, looking up to ask, are already wet with the anticipation of pleasure. "Do you... dislike it...?" A crossdresser starved for love, hiding a maddening lust. As if to expose that twisted purity, cold, merciless fingers reach toward my anus.
A faint squelching sound breaks the silence. The secret place that should reject foreign objects heats up with each touch, starting to throb heavily. With my front teased and my back assaulted in a double torment, the thread holding my sanity together snaps easily. "Ah, ugh...! There, no, please...!" My plea is nothing but a signal inviting deeper violation. The hard, overwhelmingly thick strapon splits open my narrow anal walls. A tense feeling like flesh tearing, and a supreme numbness that surpasses it. Relentless pistoning continues until my anus fully memorizes that fierce shape.
Each time the deepest part is mercilessly gouged, my mind fills with pure white pleasure. The bliss of being fucked fully and deeply. With each impact, against my will, transparent precum drips and leaks from the tip of my crotch. It's a sign of my body's surrender. "More, break me... mess me up...!" Before I know it, I've forgotten even my first-person pronoun, sinking into the mire of pleasure. While my anus is cruelly toyed with, the moment my dick—the switch for climax—is persistently stimulated, the passion sleeping inside me reaches its limit.
My whole body trembles, skin digging into the taut ropes. The surging heat can no longer be stopped by anyone. From the tip of my dick, precum like tears of joy gushes out, and endless waves of climax swallow me over and over. Here lies the ultimate form of my lovely self, drowning in the honey of depravity.