For the past eight years, I've lived with my common-law husband, who is six years older than me. I work at a delivery company's front desk. My parents are married, but their relationship has always been terrible. Growing up, I witnessed constant fights, my father's infidelity, my mother's tears, and frequent family breakups. Raised in this environment, I've always feared becoming the same kind of wife and parent. Six years ago, I managed to cut it off once, but I ended up falling into an affair with my supervisor, who is five years my senior. For four years, he had an S-like nature, delivering deep pleasure to me. Although I've since ended the affair, the echoes of pleasure he carved into my body continue to resonate—stronger than ever.