Recently, I visited a certain bar looking to meet women, but when the bartender asked me what kind of woman I like, I froze for a moment. I should've been able to answer immediately, yet for some reason, the words just wouldn't come out. When describing your ideal woman to someone, one effective way is to mention a celebrity they resemble. But if the other person isn't familiar, maybe using a few keywords would work better. Things like age—older or younger—appearance, personality; giving specific details helps the other person form a clearer image. I've always been attracted only to older women—my type is mysterious, the kind whose thoughts are hard to read. But even when I do meet someone who fits my ideal, things usually end badly. The woman in this video is so perfectly my ideal type that I was completely captivated. When love doesn't work out through normal means, maybe satisfying your lust like the cameraman does could make you feel a little better. But even then, it only leaves a hollow, unsatisfying feeling—and carries huge risks. Besides, I don't have the guts or the willpower to actually do it myself, so this time, I'll just stick to fantasizing and jerking off.