I feel embarrassed when people say good things about me, but I'm also happy. This was my third shoot, and I thought I'd gotten pretty used to it by now. Still, I ended up feeling nervous—maybe because I work with a different male actor each time. I don't have a boyfriend, but I've had a few romantic experiences. However, sex with a professional is unforgettable. That's why I was really looking forward to this shoot, and I noticed myself getting wet quickly as soon as he touched my body. I felt excited, thrilled, and aroused. After changing into a swimsuit for a massage session, I remembered seeing massage-themed adult videos before. I figured it would probably turn into something like that, but since I usually watch hardcore BDSM content, I couldn't quite imagine how it would feel. But once I actually experienced it, it felt incredibly good, and I ended up exposing myself in many embarrassing moments. Because of that, it might be difficult for me to be intimate with a boyfriend for a while.